I will be the first to acknowledge that I am more than ok with being single. Actually, for the most part, it is amazing. I don’t have to check in with someone else, about my everyday activities. With that said; someday I believe that this will change. I simply have to be open to it when it does. No matter what my state of mind is when it comes to holidays. There is always this sense of emptiness or being incomplete. There is this underlining emotion that keeps letting me know that it is just me in the world. I am not talking about depression, just the fact that holiday’s will do this to most single people.
I think this is hitting me more so here in the Philippines. Here it is even more prevalent than they thrive in a family unit, with close ties to each other. I find even as I work in the local office here, there is an overwhelming sense of family. As I walk around about my day, it is hard not to notice the strong bond between coworkers here in the Philippines. I found out that most of the Philippines will spend their weekends during the month of December; going back to their homes. To spend them with their immediate families. Some travel a great distance in doing so, without any complaints as to the travel. I always learn something when I travel for work. This trip is no exception.
Of course, there is the part about the end of the year and taking “personal inventory” of yourself. I could not talk about the holidays, without talking about how we lived during the year. What did we accomplish, start or stop, did we make the most of the year; or even what we want to change about ourselves going into the new year. For me, this has been the most of what I have been feeling or that has been weighing on my mind lately. Yes, I have made a lot of changes in my life this year. I started this blog, started doing yoga, and started to incorporate a workout routine in my daily life. Nonetheless, I have also made some poor choices, wrong decisions. With that said, I feel that this year has been a surprisingly good year for me. I will say that looking back year-to-date. I will be making more changes for the better.
We all have unknows going into the new year. There are no guarantees in life. It is all in how you choose to meet them. With 9 days left in 2019. What changes do you plan to make for 2020?